I have two paths before me, which do I take...
My will...your will...
Your will is perfect, my will is flawed...
Yet I choose...my way...
I walk…
I separate myself from you
I walk...
The further I walk, the more perilous my path becomes...
Still…I walk...
Confusion sets in and I begin to seek another route, yet continuing on my journey...
I walk…
Looking to find my way, yet the path is unclear...
I seek...but what is it that I look to find?
Feelings of anxiety overpower me...
I'm loosing control I speak aloud...
Why is it that my life is spiraling out of control?
Why am I stressed, why do I fret?
My mind is jumbled I can no longer see, for darkness has fallen all around me...
Worldly ammunition, near fatal shots to the soul...
The walking dead...not sure how to proceed in life, or if my life can be saved...
I reach out...
I feel a sensation, giving me inspiration, providing a spark to my soul...
I breathe in life.
Salvation.
...my soul has been revived...by him that makes one whole
God never left me, it was I that turned away from him...the holy spirit has always been with me, yet I've chosen to walk alone...
I reach within to find the inner strength that the spirit has instilled within me...
Now my mind is no longer blind...my eyes are set on him
I reach up, extending my hands to the father giving him praise, even for my darkest days,
Even when in the valley, I do not fret...for HE has shown me the way...
The SON now shines upon me...
I walk in joy...I feel his peace...
The spirit has renewed my spirit.
© 2010, kelic. All rights reserved. No part of this work may be reproduced or redistributed, without the express, written consent of the owners as aforementioned.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Are you guilty?
So I am watching Let’s Talk About Pep, on VH1…it is somewhat like an ethnic version of Sex and the City . The show follows Sandy “Pepa” Denton from the rap duo Salt-n-Pepa, and three of her close girlfriends as they live the single life in New York City. One of these friends is former BET Nightly News Anchor and current D.L. Hughley Morning Show co-host, Jacque Reid. I would have described myself as reserved until watching Jacque on this show. She seems to have a hard time giving in to her inhibitions. She has never experienced the big “O”, yet claims to enjoy sex. In my opinion, she comes across as stoic...
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Are you guilty?
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Are you guilty?
Monday, February 22, 2010
boissuq Unfiltered
Ms.goodigoodi and I will be stopping by The Unfiltered Show, today February 22nd at 8pm EST. So make sure to visit http://chataboutit.com/about/unfiltered/ to tune in to see what we have to say this week, you can also call in with your questions or comments! You don’t want to miss it!
Click the link below to listen to our previous appearance on 2/8/2010:
Unfiltered – Podcast – Episode 62
Click the link below to listen to our previous appearance on 2/8/2010:
Unfiltered – Podcast – Episode 62
Sunday, February 21, 2010
I'm here...
I know it's been a minute, but I'm still here! All is well...feeling blessed, blessed, blessed!
I got a new car, well it's new to me. Upgraded my 200o Toyota Corolla to an '07. Was looking at an Audi, same model year, only a couple of grand more, but it had 18k more miles on it...I have had my car for about 3 weeks now... and they are still calling me about the Audi I inquired about back then, telling me it's still available and they have brought the price down by another grand. Something must be wrong...Right now, I am not trying to create any more bills, and I am so not looking forward to a car payment. Of course I could have gotten more car, but my car is cute, and economical...it gets 30 MPG hwy, and 38 city. I got the S trim...and it so fits me...cute and not expensive to maintain.
Graduate school...I just turned in my first paper, and APA is kicking my butt! I don't recall it being so difficult when I took my Curriculum and Instruction post graduate courses. Yet this is a MA and not an MEd program, thus why it may be a little bit more focus on the technical aspects of writing. I feel that I wrote an "A" paper with regards to content, but I am anxious to see how I fared technically.
So I am so late with the updates... went to the NBA All-Star game...boring.
Went to a party hosted by D Wade that Saturday...boring.
But the weekend was not a total bust...got to spend time with friends...that's always a good time!
...and we're not going to discuss me falling down the stairs at my best friends house. OUCH!
I got a new car, well it's new to me. Upgraded my 200o Toyota Corolla to an '07. Was looking at an Audi, same model year, only a couple of grand more, but it had 18k more miles on it...I have had my car for about 3 weeks now... and they are still calling me about the Audi I inquired about back then, telling me it's still available and they have brought the price down by another grand. Something must be wrong...Right now, I am not trying to create any more bills, and I am so not looking forward to a car payment. Of course I could have gotten more car, but my car is cute, and economical...it gets 30 MPG hwy, and 38 city. I got the S trim...and it so fits me...cute and not expensive to maintain.
Graduate school...I just turned in my first paper, and APA is kicking my butt! I don't recall it being so difficult when I took my Curriculum and Instruction post graduate courses. Yet this is a MA and not an MEd program, thus why it may be a little bit more focus on the technical aspects of writing. I feel that I wrote an "A" paper with regards to content, but I am anxious to see how I fared technically.
So I am so late with the updates... went to the NBA All-Star game...boring.
Went to a party hosted by D Wade that Saturday...boring.
But the weekend was not a total bust...got to spend time with friends...that's always a good time!
...and we're not going to discuss me falling down the stairs at my best friends house. OUCH!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Monday, January 04, 2010
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
The Day After...
Yesterday was Christmas, and it was a merry and blessed day indeed...
We had enchiladas, chips, queso, and charro beans. There was cake, banana pudding, and ice cream, but I didn't have any (so you know I had some ice cream and cake today). We also had fajitas, but we never got around to eating those...don't worry, we will go in on that this evening.
And now I am listening to Michael Jackson sing, "I just can't stop loving you...", with sounds of the family playing Monopoly in the background.
Happy to have family...blessed to have family that loves me.
2009 was a bit bumpy...but I am still enjoying each and every moment that it has left to give, while looking forward to all the great things to come in 2010!
Wishing you all a happy and holiday season too!
We had enchiladas, chips, queso, and charro beans. There was cake, banana pudding, and ice cream, but I didn't have any (so you know I had some ice cream and cake today). We also had fajitas, but we never got around to eating those...don't worry, we will go in on that this evening.
I got myself the following gift... 
We played Rock Band... I suck on the drums, but I roc the mic...what?!
And now I am listening to Michael Jackson sing, "I just can't stop loving you...", with sounds of the family playing Monopoly in the background.
Happy to have family...blessed to have family that loves me.
2009 was a bit bumpy...but I am still enjoying each and every moment that it has left to give, while looking forward to all the great things to come in 2010!
Wishing you all a happy and holiday season too!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Free Handbag!
Friday, December 18, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Friday, December 11, 2009
Monday, December 07, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Questions...
annoy me.
Especially when they are questions about my personal life that have nothing to do with you.
How are you?
Is everything well?
What have you been up to?
These are questions that although may never get the truthful answer...I mean, do you want to hear me say that everything is sucks, that I'm not feeling well, and my life is boring and I have been up to absolutely nothing because there's nothing to be up to? No, you don't really care what's going on in my life...you're just being polite, so you will receive the polite response.
But questions...with me, many times go ignored.
If I want you to know, I will tell you.
Especially when they are questions about my personal life that have nothing to do with you.
How are you?
Is everything well?
What have you been up to?
These are questions that although may never get the truthful answer...I mean, do you want to hear me say that everything is sucks, that I'm not feeling well, and my life is boring and I have been up to absolutely nothing because there's nothing to be up to? No, you don't really care what's going on in my life...you're just being polite, so you will receive the polite response.
But questions...with me, many times go ignored.
If I want you to know, I will tell you.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
I'm here!
I feel as though I've been neglecting the k-spot...although I don't spend as much time here, I have not vacated the spot.
I have a lot going on right now...new position...new blog...applied to graduate school for the Spring...
There has just been so much change in my life...
some of it good...some of it not so much...but all of it will serve to make me better!
Road bumps...they might slow me down but they will not stop me!
Just wanted to say hello to everyone...
and if you miss me, you can always check me out over at boissuq.com
I have a lot going on right now...new position...new blog...applied to graduate school for the Spring...
There has just been so much change in my life...
some of it good...some of it not so much...but all of it will serve to make me better!
Road bumps...they might slow me down but they will not stop me!
Just wanted to say hello to everyone...
and if you miss me, you can always check me out over at boissuq.com
Saturday, October 03, 2009
When you look at me...
Just a vacancy, love don’t live here anymore…
When you look at me, which me do you see?
Do you see the me that at times holds her head in a false vanity, walking selfishly, unaware and unaffected by the cries of those surrounding me?
No one loves me, so why should I care?
Do you see the me that is consumed by agony, crying myself to sleep, hopelessly, crying out without a prayer, crying out where no one can hear, crying out because no one is there…
Is that the me that you see?
When you look at me which me do you see?
Do you see the me that holds her down head in humiliation…driven by self-degradation…because the way I see, no one could absolutely love me...do you see the me that feels worthless and unworthy?
Do you see the me whose heart feels a vacancy because I allowed him to enter me, not only physically but spiritually exiting with a piece of me…now I am an incomplete sum of a whole…and feeling useless because…
When you look at me which me do you see?
Do you see the me that is in pain, do you see a me that looks in the mirror with disdain…do you look at me the same?
Or…
When you look at me..
Do you see the me that has been transpired by the blood that brings forth new life…I’m not talking about a transfusion, yet speaking of an infusion down to the very core of my soul…making me whole, controlling each beat of my heart…the rhythm of my pulse…
Now look at me…
Which me do you see?
Do you see the me with a new song to sing…
LOVE LIVES HERE!
no longer feeling a void…an emptiness, because now my heart has been instilled with joy…
do you see that me?
Do you see the me who is no longer incomplete but has been made whole …the me that no longer cries out in agony but shouts in victory…the me with a testimony…
Do you see the me ready to stand with my fellow man, extending a hand, to uplift someone in need…someone who feels a void…someone with a vacancy…
Because…
That’s the me I’m aspiring to be, is that the me that you see?
Because…
that’s the me HE needs me to be…
So, hopefully that is the me that you see.
Copyright © 2009 by kelic. All rights reserved worldwide. No part of this may be used or reproduced without the author’s consent.
When you look at me, which me do you see?
Do you see the me that at times holds her head in a false vanity, walking selfishly, unaware and unaffected by the cries of those surrounding me?
No one loves me, so why should I care?
Do you see the me that is consumed by agony, crying myself to sleep, hopelessly, crying out without a prayer, crying out where no one can hear, crying out because no one is there…
Is that the me that you see?
When you look at me which me do you see?
Do you see the me that holds her down head in humiliation…driven by self-degradation…because the way I see, no one could absolutely love me...do you see the me that feels worthless and unworthy?
Do you see the me whose heart feels a vacancy because I allowed him to enter me, not only physically but spiritually exiting with a piece of me…now I am an incomplete sum of a whole…and feeling useless because…
When you look at me which me do you see?
Do you see the me that is in pain, do you see a me that looks in the mirror with disdain…do you look at me the same?
Or…
When you look at me..
Do you see the me that has been transpired by the blood that brings forth new life…I’m not talking about a transfusion, yet speaking of an infusion down to the very core of my soul…making me whole, controlling each beat of my heart…the rhythm of my pulse…
Now look at me…
Which me do you see?
Do you see the me with a new song to sing…
LOVE LIVES HERE!
no longer feeling a void…an emptiness, because now my heart has been instilled with joy…
do you see that me?
Do you see the me who is no longer incomplete but has been made whole …the me that no longer cries out in agony but shouts in victory…the me with a testimony…
Do you see the me ready to stand with my fellow man, extending a hand, to uplift someone in need…someone who feels a void…someone with a vacancy…
Because…
That’s the me I’m aspiring to be, is that the me that you see?
Because…
that’s the me HE needs me to be…
So, hopefully that is the me that you see.
Copyright © 2009 by kelic. All rights reserved worldwide. No part of this may be used or reproduced without the author’s consent.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Please forgive me!
I will never chose another over you again. I have learned my lesson, and now I know, I truly need you. So know I'm asking you to come back and help right what I've made wrong...
I need you! There is none better than you!
Oh Tide, I just hope you can find it within yourself to forgive me!
I need you! There is none better than you!
Oh Tide, I just hope you can find it within yourself to forgive me!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Cloudy is my vision...
I have a lot of things going on in my head...all though none of them seem to be clear at moment.
I have had a few obstacles thrown at me these past few weeks...but greater is he that's within me!
Yeah, I could have handled myself differently, but I should not have been put in that position in the first place.
Why is it so hot?!!! I mean, I have to get it right! I can't go to hell! I would not least 5 secs...
I was awaken from a good sleep last night (had been asleep maybe an hour and a half) and I could not get back to sleep...I was wide awake until about 6am...could have used a good book.
I am really craving some fried shrimp right now...ooooh, with a baked potatoes...who's cooking me dinner tonight?!
Getting ready for football season! My Longhorns are ranked #2! That's what I'm talking about...but with our schedule we better go undefeated...
Well blog world, really didn't have too much to say today, just felt the need to check in.
Make sure to check us out at boissuq.
Things are becoming a bit more clear...
I have had a few obstacles thrown at me these past few weeks...but greater is he that's within me!
Yeah, I could have handled myself differently, but I should not have been put in that position in the first place.
Why is it so hot?!!! I mean, I have to get it right! I can't go to hell! I would not least 5 secs...
I was awaken from a good sleep last night (had been asleep maybe an hour and a half) and I could not get back to sleep...I was wide awake until about 6am...could have used a good book.
I am really craving some fried shrimp right now...ooooh, with a baked potatoes...who's cooking me dinner tonight?!
Getting ready for football season! My Longhorns are ranked #2! That's what I'm talking about...but with our schedule we better go undefeated...
Well blog world, really didn't have too much to say today, just felt the need to check in.
Make sure to check us out at boissuq.
Things are becoming a bit more clear...
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