Confusion

I have a lot what I want to say…not sure how to say it…not sure if it’s worth saying…

#2 is now #1…but he’s not ready to be #1, and he’s only #1 because #1 has been acting in a manner in which I don’t prefer…so does that mean that #1 is still #2.

I don’t have a problem with giving…until I feel that it goes unappreciated…once you become entitled…I no longer feel the desire to give…so if you appreciate it, I need to know it…so you better show it…or else I say f@#% it!

Say one thing…do another…words only hold merit if they are backed up with actions…so, I don’t care what you say…it’s all in what you do…and right now…you ain’t saying or doing boo!

Yep…still talking about #1…but I guess the issues would be non-issues if I did not really like him…but…I like #2 too… again…two tears in a bucket…f@#% it…

So why I am in this funk?

Who do I look like?

Found this at EB's blog...

http://www.myheritage.com/collage

I guess I can deal with these...I put in some other pics and got some crazy results...

Calvin Coolidge

Jamie Foxx

Jimmy Carter...wtf?!

And...

I don't post my mug too often...will be a minute before you see me again.

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This is the pic that rendered the Jamie Foxx and Calvin Coolidge result...

Parents Need to Listen

So, the parents headed home yesterday…against my advice…

“We have electricity”

“But what about other resources, power is not always enough”

...Well…

They have power, but they don’t have running water…went to the police station yesterday morning to get bottled water and ice…can’t buy food because the stores are closed…can’t get gas…

I know that my mother was asked to report to work today, but she’s never concerned about running back to work any other time she’s been visiting…I understand they were anxious to get home and check things out…but now, they can’t go anywhere…they can’t get gas.
I offered to ship some bread and stuff to them overnight…my dad’s reaction…

“Girl, you don’t need to do all that shit. We all right”

Translation…

“Stop being so dramatic and I don’t want you to worry about us.”

Well Daddy, that’s easier said than done…that’s what I do…I worry…I take on the role of caretaker, nurturer…I just want to make sure that everyone is ok…

And I would be a lot less stressed right now…if my parents would have just listened to me and stayed here for a couple more days!

Thoughts and Prayers

I am at work…but I can’t focus…my mind is elsewhere…

My parents made it into town late Wed. night…fleeing Ike…yep…big bad hurricane Ike.
I knew this one could potentially be a big one…why?

In 2005 when hurricane Rita was in the gulf, projected to hit my home town before turning…my dad was not pressed…even when Rita grew into a cat 5 my dad was chilling…so much so that my mother left him behind and headed on into Austin solo…well…after witnessing the destruction of Katrina, I totally flipped out, threatening to never speak to her again if Rita was what they predicted and my father’s life was put in danger…now this time around…when they announced mandatory evacuations for Freeport, TX…my father called my mom and asked what where her plans, because he did not want to be left behind this time…

Freeport TX is a peninsula… right at sea level…my parent’s home is only a few miles from the Gulf…the are predicting a storm surge up to 20 ft, and potential 50 ft waves…the beach is already awash…

My parents did not board up…my mother said she packed her, “nice clothes”, pictures, and important documents…

I don’t go home often, maybe once every 3 years…it’s like I got out and never looked back…if my parents did not leave back there, I would probably never enter the city limits…there is nothing for me in Freeport, TX…but…it’s still home…that’s where I grew up...and I would not change my small town upbringing for anything…no matter how far away I move…Freeport will always be home…I enjoyed living near the water…it’s something peaceful about it… running on the levee along the Brazos River…going with family fishing on the jetty’s in the Gulf…my friends parties (DJ and all) on one of his family’s party boat…those were fun times…and the thought that one storm can come and wash my home away…well…I can’t even imagine…

I pray that Ike comes and goes with minimal damage.

My thoughts and prayers are with all that are within Ike's path.

Ol' School Sports Crushes

I have a thing for athletes…especially the ones with that arrogant swat…oh, but you have to have the ability to back it up too…until recently, I have never been into a dude that was not a current/former football player…and of course if a former player, they must look like it…I have crushed on a bball player or two…I actually been crushing on a 6’7” PF since I was 12…he is probably the finest man I have ever laid eyes on…well it’s a toss up between him and #2 (I really need to come up with better nicknames...but anyway...let's get back on topic here...I give you, my first 4 athlete crushes...




4. Andre Agassi


Hush, I don’t want to hear it! I played tennis and at the time I loved me some him, he was my favorite male player at the time…there was no James Blake on the scene back then, and Yannick Noah is not attractive...and I was only 12...I did not know any better.



3. Prime Time

This was my first football crush (only baseball crush)…I loved me some Neon Deion, jheri curl and all…still do!



2. Blaine Bishop
I’m not usually into pretty boys…but this man is fione…well at least he was back then. Didn’t hurt that he played for the Houston Oilers (may they RIP).

And now…for the top pick of them all…my all time greatest sports crush…I fell in love with this man as a teenager and I have been crushing ever since…His Royal Airness, Michael Jordan!

… he always strived to beat his personal best…and that caused him to bring a passion to the game that I don’t think will ever be duplicated…I could genuinely tell that he loved what he did…that was nothing better to him than stepping out on the hardwood…preparing to do what he did best…losing was not an option…he’s the reason I chose to wear the #23 in HS…not to mention…he’s hella sexy! I think this is where my affinity for bald chocolate men started…and he's still got it...Yes lawd! If I only I were that cigar!

Are you ready for some football?!

I sure the hell am!

I already got it poppin this past weekend with the Longhorn season opener…hook’em!

The best thing about watching a game live…the hard hitting…being able to hear the pads crack…I love it!

Tonight kicks off the start of the NFL season…

The Redskins head to the Meadowlands to take on the defending Super Bowl champs…
The game kicks off at 6:15 my time…I usually don’t leave work until six, even if I leave at 5, I will be stuck in traffic for an hour…$*@#*! , just because McCain’s old azz can’t stay up too late to give his acceptance speech…that’s what it ain’t!

I am neutral, can care less who wins…I am just ready for the season to get underway…
Wait, not too fast…let me check my fantasy line ups…

For those who know me, you know I love me some backs…
Quarterbacks, running backs, defensive backs… I might also have a thing for a linebacker or two, and who doesn’t love a tight end?!

I’m a Titans fan…love me some VY and The Freak is back! What sucks for me…is that I live in Austin, TX…they want to show Cowboys (boooo!) or Texans (booooo hiss hiss booo!) games…yeah, given that I grew up an Oilers fan, I tried to give the Texans a chance…if the Titans keep drafting Longhorns (still upset about them passing over Sweed, we need a WR), I will be a fan for life.

Ahhhh, football’s in the air!

This ish turns me on!

Show me the money!

It’s expensive being a woman…

$60-$80 brazillian wax, every 4 to 6 weeks
$15 - $20 eyebrows

And for those ladies who have chemically treated hair…let’s see, you probably have a standing hair appointment every two weeks at what, “$40 - $55 a pop? And let’s not talk relaxer, that’s about $50 - $75.

Hair products…we can’t just get some Dax grease, a heavy azz brush, and a wave cap…nope…
For me…
Shampoo $7.50 & Conditioner $7.50 (Regis curl lock, I love it)
Paul Mithcell foaming pomade $7.95
Paul Mitchell sculpting foam $11
Fortunately, my hair products last me a while…come to think of it, I just might be able to get away with the Dax and a wave cap…just maybe.

Then there is lip gloss…we spend at least $7 - $13 just to give our lips that glossy shine.

We spend money on body butters, exfoliating scrubs, and all kinds of things to keep or skin soft and glowing…I mean, why can’t we just be down with a bottle of Jergens like the menfolk?
Manicures - $25 plus, Pedicures $25 plus (although I must admit, I don’t really keep up with either of the two…I will take care of my own feet, I love wearing open toe heels, can’t be all dusty and crusty).

Once a month we have to spend about $5 to $10 on products (tampons, ibuprofen, panty liners, what have you) to help get us through that time of the month…and if you have cravings, forget it, that’s like an extra $20 in food that week. And I am not sure about you ladies, but I spend about $30 a month on damn toilet paper…I swear I must eat this stuff…must be nice to shake and go.

Birth control…some folks insurance don’t want to even cover that mug, and then even sometimes with the generic pills you are paying damn near $30 for a month’s supply…then I don’t know how much the shot, or the ring cost, but I would say that overall it breaks down to about $30 a month. My birth control has been pretty cheap for the past 23 months…abstinence, ha! But on the cool…$30 a damn month…and that does not include the cost of condoms…I think we should go to the party strapped as well…never know what might pop off.

Damn the more I add this up…forget sponsoring a child, sponsor a woman, today!

Uneventful is Good!

So I had a pretty uneventful holiday weekend…and I would not have it any other way…uneventful is good…

Before I continue, let me stop and give thanks to God for keeping Gustav’s damage to a minimal…

Speaking of uneventful, is it just me, or do the news reporters seem a bit disappointed that Gustav did not come in and wreck havoc? Saying ish, like “Ike could be big” with excitement and glee…well, I pray that Ike is not big. People’s lives were still affected by Gustav, although minimal, there was damage…if you have never had to flee from the potential danger, you could no way imagine how it feels…I grew up on the TX coast, and I am on edge anytime they say tropical anything brewing…I could never imagine living through the devastation that was Katrina…and just think of those who did not make it out…I was at my wits end when my mother decided to stay home during Gustav, my family lives west of Galveston Island, right at the mouth of the Brazos River, there are levees all around…my parents are very close to the gulf, probably like a 2 maybe 3 mi drive…so yeah, I was freaking out a bit…I don’t think there is any reason to risk it if you don’t have too…and she did not have to go to work (her job shuts down when they hear the word hurricane), and my sister and I are both here in central Texas…a good 200 miles away from the coast…come chill with us.

I went to the Longhorn season opener on Saturday…let me say it was hot! And no, I am not referring to the fact that VY, Michael Griffin, and Matthew McConaughey were on the sidelines…but that helped, although Matthew is looking mighty crazy these days…and his TX shirt was not sexy…his girlfriend was on the sideline, with the baby…in 100 degree weather, it was too hot for my grown azz to be out there, I thought I was going to pass out…then they had the poor baby all bundled up in a sling across his mama’s chest? Why?! You know they be on some other level stuff…especially Matthew.

I did not leave my apartment once on Sunday…not once…I had to make do with whatever food and drank I had in the crib…made tea, only had about a fourth of a cup of sugar…I just had to make do. I had some chicken drumettes and some Louisiana hot sauce…so I made me some hot wings…and they sure were good!

My sister had to work yesterday, so I told her I would keep the girls. They came over Sunday night…not trying to wake up at 7am on a holiday because my sister had to drop the girls off…they brought Theodore, the Chinese dwarf hamster…why he gots to be Chinese? And why he gots to be a dwarf? I cannot stand the site of this thing…it’s a rodent?! Of course they did not ask me if their beloved pet could come along, they just brought him…ick! That damn thing scared the hell out of me, woke me up in the middle of the night spinning on that damn wheel…he waits until everyone is ready to sleep to want to get crunk…that’s what the hell it ain’t! I was really tempted to put him outside on the patio…the only saving grace was I did not want a cat or raccoon or whatever get a hold of him. I mean…I know he was in his cage, but if the raccoons can manage to make their way into the attic (even after chicken wire was put ever the vents) I am sure they can make their way into a hamster cage. And the last thing I needed was for the oldest to get all emotional about a damn rodent…not too mentioned she would never have forgiven me…she even had the nerve to tell me that she thinks people can go to jail for stuff like that, said it’s neglectful and endangerment…was that a threat?! Whatever, I wish she would call the cops on me because I put her hamster outside…I would make sure to whoop her azz right there in front of the cops just for gp.

Patrice, I had a cup of gumbo yesterday and I’m still alive! And I am glad that all is well with your fam!

I guess it’s back to business as usual for me…